Enthusiasm

That was what gave the Halo effect.

Why people think I'm all positive and stuff.

When all the while I'm not all that positive.

Almost negative even.

Sigh

Run

Physically, lying down is what I do best.

But mentally, it's running.

I need something exiting to give me back the zest for life.

Onegai.

The Knife Of Never Letting Go

Because I forgot how it feels like to drown inside another world.

Food

Yappari ne…

Food makes you feel a whole lot better.

Alhamdulillah.

Full tummy = Big smile.

;P

Well

I guess I never obtained the will to pick it back up again

And thought I'm already lying in pieces on the floor,

I'm still crumbling.

Melancholy

I was never one to give my heart away.

For fear of being hurt.

My pride never allowed me to cry for anybody at all.

But somehow, it's inevitable - being the human that I am.

I choked on the phone, and continued the conversation pretending my voice didn't almost cracked.

I didn't think she heard it.

I guess, people always just take a piece your heart away without you noticing.

And I guess, as much as someone hurt you without them noticing it,

You'll immediately miss them when there's something that reminds you of the memories.

And that's okay.

Because, you wouldn't know that you're alive unless you've cried.

P/s:  Getting a minor wound  on my foot. Not being able to walk properly has made me a little  emotional these past days. I apologize. 

Reset

Like a reset button, my Tuesdays are spent with me doing nothing but what I can't do on other days.

How liberating it may sound, it doesn't feel as such.

It's just a comfort that I get when I feel too pressured by the other days I have to go through.

And come next rising sun, everything will be reset.

On with life.

No responsibilities on Tuesdays.

And come Wednesday, I'll have to face reality yet again.

Special

You know that time, when you heart feels warm from the tears you swallowed?

And suddenly you're unable to speak because you choked on your own breath and saliva.

You covered your mouth with your palm trying to stop yourself from crying.

But it burst out anyway.

Well, know that this is what makes you human.

Be proud of it.

None of the animals are able to do the same.

Misconception

The biggest mistake that we've always done

is

assuming people have never changed at all.

Luka

Tiba-tiba airmata luruh macam hujan

Sakit setiap langkah,

Luka fizikal kecil,

Besar lagi robek dalaman.

yang lebih bisa bukannya kaki, tapi hati.

Tak cukupkah apa yang aku dah buat?

Kenapa mesti lihat apa yang kurang?

Tulah katanya.
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Mungkin…ya.

Kerana bagaimanapun mereka,

KAU yang perlu bersabar. Bukan dia.

Allah…
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Kuatkan lah aku.

Paras

Seindah mata birunya
Secomel bibir merahnya
Sebesar bola matanya

Percayalah,
itu bukanlah segala-gala…

Bila kau yang lebih perlu untuk berjaga-jaga,
Alangkah sukarnya.

Bila salah mereka dituduh salahmu juga,
Alangkah sakitnya.

Biarlah,
Menjadi yang biasa.

Usah dikejar pandang manusia.
Yang megahnya hanya akan membuatmu derita

Kelak,
Di akhirat sana.

Just Do What You Do Best

Somehow, when I begin writing, I don't know when to stop.

When I get mad at something, I tend to take a while to cool off.

And now, the thing that irritates me so much at 4 p.m. is finally behind me.

So I guess, precisely, about 7 hours?

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Watching other people being strong gives me strength.

Watching other people's hardwork motivates me.

Watching other people being nice mesmerises me.

It's amazing.

What you can do just by doing what you do best.

I hope one day, I can be that person too.

Yuttie san

Whenever you're unsure of yourself, just take a glance back.

Read your diary out loud and you'll see…

There's nothing to be unsure of.

You're still listening to Taylor Swift even after 7 years.

And you still desperately want to go to Japan .

Something went wrong? Then simply smile.

And say,

'don't sweat over small things. wakachiko, wakachiko'

hahah.

Chiisai

Sedikit demi sedikit

Aku semakin sedar akan kecilnya diri…

Terlalu kecil….

Tanpa Allah,

Maka jadilah semakin kecil.

Hanya dengan menyerah sepenuh-penuh kepada Dia,

Barulah mampu untuk menjadi besar.

Kejar akhirat sayang…

Dan dunia seisinya akan tunduk.

Berapa banyak kali mahu diingatkan?

Haih... tak mengapalah.

Memang manusia itu mudah lupa…

Lebih-lebih lagi kau yang telefon di poket pun boleh ditanya lagi "mana".